Posts Tagged ‘pain’

Pain of Goodbyes

Posted: June 19, 2015 in Uncategorized
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For a while he stood there gazing painfully into her eyes-
and she listened to the unspoken promises with sorrow and surprise.

She saw him vanishing into the distance and collapsed to the ground. Tears rolled down her cheeks and a beautiful poetry was formed. A poetry which was neither spoken nor written, one just had to have true love in heart to be able to feel it- something which almost everyone present at the airport lacked. People who believe that love can be achieved only by performing certain rituals can never really understand the love Radha-Krishna shared, they can never really know that love is above all these marital rituals. She was least bothered by the reactions of these people on her pathetic condition because for her the love which wasn’t imposed was more pure and precious than the one which was arranged. Her love didn’t need sanctions by priests because she believed in freeing not restricting. The poetry achieved a flow with the flowing tears and for hours she couldn’t feel anything but the pain of goodbye.

Her pain sang a song and she was poetry personified for she had love imprinted all over her soul.


He Is Back

Posted: August 9, 2014 in Uncategorized
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Staring at the ceiling one dark night
I realized he was back, he was back in my life
And my heart was pounding with pain and fear
Oh how did it happen but I shed no tear
For I was not sad nor was I upset
Just my limbs grew weak just as the sun sets
Believing he was not near or around
I closed my eyes and ignored that sound
That noise and that voice which screamed so loud
Oh yes he was back I could hear her shout
Within no time he appeared and I could see
He was hanging upside down just like my heart
And my world once again was falling apart
He is dark, he is scary, he hides within
Called as depression and the one who owns sins.
Grows at night and proceeds during the day
Under the skin of my body he makes his way
And death comes not to me not to him
We both feel low and lights are dim
Oh yes he is back! I can feel him under my skin.

I Am Of My Writings

Posted: July 15, 2014 in Life
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Don’t like me for my pictures
Don’t judge by my face
My writings are my identity
They are my grace
When I am lost in the world
I read them again
They have some peace
Even in their pain.


Posted: July 12, 2014 in Life, Pain
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Posted: May 29, 2014 in Death, Life, Love, Pain
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Your love strengthens my soul
And it takes the strength away
It gives me joy and gives me pain
How beautifully you play.

I have never felt so week in love
Like you have now made me feel
You tear apart my holy heart
And my skin you cruelly peel.

Mercy my man pity my love
Have some compassion on my nerve
Place your hand across your heart
and tell is this what I deserve?

You say nothing has changed
And we are still the same
Then why this discord between us
Why is our love so lame?

I collapse to the ground
My body is trembling with pain
My heart is almost dead
I am crying bitterly in rain.

I’ll open my eyes when you come back
Till then on this barren land I will lie
What is there for me in this world
If I don’t have you I wish I die.

So Much Pain

Posted: May 27, 2014 in Death, Life, Love, Pain
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I am so much in pain today
My dreams all cry
My hopes here die
Waiting for my man
to my love I lie.

I am so much in pain today
Scared of my fears
I wipe out my tears
Calling out to him
This pain my heart bears.

I am so much in pain today
I have a broken heart
Don’t know how to start
When he goes away
My world falls apart.

I am so much in pain today
He has some doubt
And the fights are loud
To make him believe
I speak, scream and shout.

I am so much in pain today
He does not know
The love I show
Is real but he’s rude
I have nowhere to go.

I am so much in pain today
O man don’t go away
In my heart you stay
My pains need you now
This pain you can allay.

I am so much in pain today
But the man is away
It is a restless day
He is not ready to listen and
I have nothing left to say.

Love Lost

Posted: May 23, 2014 in Life, Love, Pain
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She fell for a man of wits and wisdom
his eyes hypnotized her senses
She was ready to sacrifice her freedom
To his tune her heartbeat dances!

His love was her drug and she was addicted
For him she was ready to change everything
She could not see the upcoming challenges
All she knew was he was her king.

Love spread like a venom in their blood
A moment’s separation gave colossal pain
They could not imagine life without each other
Their love was so pure yet so insane!
…to be continued

The Way I Do

Posted: May 10, 2014 in Life, Love, Pain
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I walk alone the narrow lane
With tearful eyes in heavy rain
To hide my pain that glooms my day
But you can’t see cz you are away.

And one day when I got to see you
With many faces I once knew
All I could feel was my love for you
And I quit them all in memory of you.

But how today you look the same
If you still remember my face and name
There’s no harm in being with you
Because all I want for me is you.

I stare at you if you gimme a look
Just one smile is enough to hook
If you still want the time to return
To see my face you need to turn.

You were not wrong neither was I
I am all yours, though a bit shy
But the crowd makes a wall around
And you can’t hear my frail sound.

I curse myself like it’s my crime
You must know the culprit is time
Time took you away and made me alone
But you can’t see cz you are gone.

I still pass by the same place and street
I feel you there and the memories I meet
Make me smile and make me cry
Like a bird you fly in my lonely sky.

I don’t mind because you stay in me
You are away but I still can see
You miss me often as I cry in you
Nobody can love you the way I do.

If He Must Go

Posted: May 6, 2014 in Death, Life, Love, Pain
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I said don’t go my man
Don’t go for I will die
as the thought crosses my mind
With fear and pain I shiver and cry!

For the love of his nation
He says he must leave
This land is his mother & love
She is prior and supreme!

My lady please be strong
Don’t be so mean and selfish
I promise I will come back
To hug you again, to love & kiss.

Have some compassion on my nerves
My dear man look into my eyes
With pain they shed tears
For your love they try to look nice.

Your Lady is not a warrior
Neither is she a warrior’s wife
She is ready to die for you
But she can’t imagine her life!

I feel so small in this world
He says, I will come back as a man
better than what I am today
Then I will be your mate, your man!

If it is your dream and desire
Then I will say not a word
I said, I am ready to fall
To see you rise in the world.

My man is the soul in this relation
I am just the perishable body
while body is dead without a soul
A soul becomes eternal and free!

If he must go
Then I must leave
Towards the wide sky
To ocean blue and deep!


A fair lady from heavens
Was sent to the earth
To poor parents she was born
No celebrations upon her birth!

Like an Angel she was pure
As docile as a gentle lady
To a short tempered mother
She was born to a poor daddy!

As creative as the creator
As magnificent as a starry night
Blessed with a melodious voice
She was beautiful, creative & bright!

Confined to the four walls
Pen and paper, colours and brush
All she had to express her desires
Before they were brutally crushed!

Friends with the moon and stars
She had high desires and big dreams
Ready to light the dark world
As radiant as the bright sun beams.

With thoughts as deep as
With aims as wide as the sky
She was the queen of her own world
A world where cupids freely fly!

Her soul shrieked for peace
She could not find solace
She never felt any belongingness
She never belonged to this place!

She wished she could fly away
This house was not her home
She wished she could be with her mates
These people were not her own!

Her smile was the best curve
Her eyes reflecting eternal pain
She never spoke her heart out
Her heart filled with desires insane!

The singer laments inside her
And the dancer collapsed to ground
She was vulnerable and fragile
She was free in her world yet bound!

Money became her worst enemy
He has a glittery face and crimson hands
With her unfulfilled desires
Like a beggar this fairy stands!

She cursed her fate and cried
Over the desires unfulfilled
She cursed the day she was born
That she was born so skilled!

From heavens she was sent to earth
Nobody ever knew her plight
Her restless soul decided to rest
She left for heavens one night!

But she was thrown back to earth
In the same rough bed she lied
She suffered the worst as a mortal
Until she killed herself and died!